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Jun. 25th, 2004 11:47 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
valis2I am very tired...still sick...will it never go away? I went to work yesterday. Ugh. Bad idea. I kind of felt like I had to, though. I hadn't been there in a week.
My computer was very upset every time I put a disc in...turns out I had Dueling Virus Scanners who were hitting each other with sticks and not letting the disc share its joy with my computer. I had to kick one out. Sad but true. There's only one sheriff in town, boys.
I have the most bizarre desire to start making music again. I called to order a USB to MIDI cable and they ended up hanging up on me earlier this week. So I called today at 2:20 to try to order it again and they...were closed. They close at 2 on Fridays. Great. Thanks. "You crazy catalog people with your crazy hang-ups and your crazy hours are repressing my obviously inebriated and highly suspect muse..."
Why do I want to make music again? I think it is because every time I am supposed to be doing something my mind thinks of something else to distract itself with. So now I have to learn an entire new language...wave, ACID, bleh. I hope it's worth it. If it's not, my mind and I are going to have a serious conversation.
Happy news: page 81 on my giant fanfic. Lovely, truely. I have finally irrevocably gotten past the dreaded Page 36 Curse. On every fic I've written before this one I've reached page 36 and stopped. It seems like it's a difficult spot for me. It's too exhausting to rewrite, but it's not perfect, so I can't write more. Fanfic solved that problem. Every chapter gets posted when I'm done. I write a chapter in twenty to forty minutes. I go through once. I leave it for a half hour. I read through again. Then I post it. You see...then I can't obsess! It's done! I can't change it! (Well, I can, but it takes some effort.) So I'm stuck. Nowhere to go but forward! Mwa ha ha! I knew there had to be a way to get past that crazed perfectionism.
Sorry, no Sane Thought today. Too tired.
My computer was very upset every time I put a disc in...turns out I had Dueling Virus Scanners who were hitting each other with sticks and not letting the disc share its joy with my computer. I had to kick one out. Sad but true. There's only one sheriff in town, boys.
I have the most bizarre desire to start making music again. I called to order a USB to MIDI cable and they ended up hanging up on me earlier this week. So I called today at 2:20 to try to order it again and they...were closed. They close at 2 on Fridays. Great. Thanks. "You crazy catalog people with your crazy hang-ups and your crazy hours are repressing my obviously inebriated and highly suspect muse..."
Why do I want to make music again? I think it is because every time I am supposed to be doing something my mind thinks of something else to distract itself with. So now I have to learn an entire new language...wave, ACID, bleh. I hope it's worth it. If it's not, my mind and I are going to have a serious conversation.
Happy news: page 81 on my giant fanfic. Lovely, truely. I have finally irrevocably gotten past the dreaded Page 36 Curse. On every fic I've written before this one I've reached page 36 and stopped. It seems like it's a difficult spot for me. It's too exhausting to rewrite, but it's not perfect, so I can't write more. Fanfic solved that problem. Every chapter gets posted when I'm done. I write a chapter in twenty to forty minutes. I go through once. I leave it for a half hour. I read through again. Then I post it. You see...then I can't obsess! It's done! I can't change it! (Well, I can, but it takes some effort.) So I'm stuck. Nowhere to go but forward! Mwa ha ha! I knew there had to be a way to get past that crazed perfectionism.
Sorry, no Sane Thought today. Too tired.
