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I've been ruminating about fandom and fannish culture and this is what came out. This does not really have a connection to it but...that's what I've been thinking about lately.

Keep in mind that I am not a poet. I am a bad poet in poet's clothing. ~800 words. I have borrowed lines from The Odyssey.

Warning: poetry under cut )
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So where is everybody these days?

I'm just wondering. I have accounts at JF, IJ, DW, FB, Twitter. I don't do fannish stuff on FB & Twitter, but I'm not certain there's much of a fannish presence there, considering the size of fics and such.

I haven't been monitoring IJ or DW at all.

Is DW growing? Are there more fics and fans to be found there? Should I start watching DW again?

What are your fannish social media habits like right now, flist? I'm very curious.

ETA: Oh, and where are you archiving? I'm really liking AO3, personally, and I'm seeing that some fandoms are using it more and more.
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...that I wibble a lot about self-esteem and writing fanfic. I'm always holding my breath when I post a story to see if it will get comments, to see if people like it, to see what the reaction is.

Yes, I do write for myself, but I still do very much consider the audience.

Anyway, I just read a TERRIFIC entry from [ profile] faithwood about how highly personal and subjective reading fanfic can be. It was extremely interesting to look at it from a different POV and really think about the readers and how people comment. I found the entry to be engaging and thought-provoking.

I wish I could remember who gave me the link. The upshot is, it's a terrific entry about fanfic and popularity and commenting you should check it out if you're interested.
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Speaking of yums, [ profile] florahart was awesomesauce extreme and wrote some Hawaii 5-0 ficlets for people who asked, including a scorcher based on the word prompt "dark" for me. They're awesome, she's an awesome writer, I urge you to check them out if you like that fandom (and slash, of course).

This morning I dreamt that [ profile] marginaliana and I were attending my high school. But as we are now. And we were both kind of underwhelmed. We were sitting in class, which was held in the gym, and we were wearing the school uniforms, and M was getting bored and started talking over the teacher. So another teacher came and warned us to be quiet, and then M kept talking, and the other teacher came back and said that we both were getting detention. And we kind of eyerolled. And then she said that detentions were a dollar now, and she seemed very smug about it. So I pulled out a twenty, and said, oh, so this is how you're "fundraising" now, and suddenly she said it was $13.60 because there were other charges or something.

So M, you owe me $6.80 in dream cash.

Other than that, I am feeling a little better today. Yesterday morning I had blood drawn in the morning, which always makes me feel yucky, and then I spent the rest of the day crawling around in my low self-esteem ooze. Thankfully, in most cases the greater share of this ooze seems to fade after a night's sleep or two. I'm interested to find out what the results of the bloodwork are. I wonder how far my PCOS has progressed.

In good news, I posted a pic of a craft in progress on my FB fanpage, and 13 people liked it, which is a record for me. And I really need to finish it, lol. Also, someone went through my Etsy supplies shop and hearted about 40 items, which is unusual. I also had an eBay buyer purchase 15 items today and send me an eBay message for every. single. one. ugh.

I have run out of 8th Continent soymilk, so it's back to Silk. wah.

Okay, enough random weirdness. Back to eBay stuff, maybe finishing the crafty thing, and, if there are a few minutes, looking for H5-0 fic. In fact, I might just have to start watching the comms. I did snip a bunch of HP stuff recently, so it might be nice to add something new. Hmm. (Oh, and I also snipped some journals, but they were people who never friended me, so they probably aren't even aware that I have defriended them, and if they are, I can't imagine that they are bereft over it.)

Oh, which reminds me: If you ever want to defriend me because we are not communicating or you don't like my stance on Sharpie pens (I 100% like them and feel they are made entirely of win and strong ink) or you feel that you are lioned out, please do so, no worries, no hard feelings, seriously.
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Okay, have erased the crazy entry I just wrote.

I'm just a little off-balance right now; I feel uncertain, and I am worrying way too much about what other people are thinking. I am imagining too much what other people are thinking. I need to take a deep breath and drop this drama from my head.

In good news, I have managed to clean off my crafting desk. See, I always used to process merchandise at the coffee table, which drove Husband crazy because it would be such a huge mess for a week. He likes to sit on the couch and it's kind of tough when I'm there already with stuff strewn all over the place. So now that my crafting desk is bigger (yay!), I did my sorting there instead. It meant I couldn't craft all weekend, sadly. Now, however, it is entirely clean again, and I have processed a bunch of stuff and only have one bag leftover of merchandise for sale, and two bags of stuff for my stash, which I'll take care of later.

I really need to write some new crafting blog entries and craft something new. See, this is why today is mixed; on one hand I'm troubled just a little by things outside of my control, and on the other hand I feel happy for new accomplishments. I've just posted two more new stories, one of which was a little unfinished thing which has made me very happy. It was kind of hanging around and bugging me for a while. Mixed.

I'm also feeling stressed because my to-do list has grown again. Taxes, y'know, and I am starting to panic. Just preparing all of the stuff to send to my tax guy is a big chore. And I haven't even started yet. *sigh*

Okay, enough moping. I'm going to do some crafting and I'm going to kiss Husband when he gets home and I am going to think thoughts made of win rather than low self-esteem.
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I've been sorting merchandise today. I kind of missed my chance to craft/list a new item on Etsy, and I also missed my chance to restock eBay. But that's okay; I can do so tomorrow, I think.

The day was kind of a good day, in two different ways. On one hand, I managed to sort through a lot of new merchandise, and I feel good with the progress. I'm looking forward to finishing.

I also finished the giant meta post about the giant Riptide fic. All done, posted, tl;dr, thank goodness. So I finally feel like I've wrapped up that year of effort with a big bow, and now I'm looking forward to writing something else.

I am starting to think thoughts about poetry. I don't write a lot of it, and I think I would write more if I felt I could share it somewhere. And that got me thinking; I don't think I will ever be published as a poet, and that entire struggle of getting into the dwindling poetry mags is just not something I want to engage in. There's only one mag I would try for at this point (Calyx), and that's about it. So what I'm thinking is that I will just start posting my poetry here, if I write anything. I mean, why not? You guys are my writing group, honestly. And since there's very little chance that I would be published, it's not an issue about it being out in a public space.

I think I just convinced myself to go ahead with it. Don't worry--I'll put it behind a cut.

I'm going to read some more Hawaii 5-0 fic and go to bed. (I'm nearly through skimming the entire Steve/Danno community. I've found a handful of yum, it's been great.)
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I am waay tired right now.

I just popped up to say HAPPY BIRTHDAY to [ profile] penball! I am woefully behind in all things birthdaylike and ficcish, I am so sorry. But stay tuned, I have a little ficlet for you in the future, I promise.

In other news, I have finished posting all of the FOURTEEN entries it took to get the Giant Fic up and running. All done, except for the ginormous Inspiration-and-Music entry, which I was tempted to work on tonight, but I didn't have time. I feel so happy that it's finally done. And a little...sad. It's weird, not opening up the huge Word doc every night.

Goodnight, flist!
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because I am insanely tired and should have gone to bed an hour ago.

There was this story I told on LJ from last summer where I was driving along and suddenly thought about deer and how I'd never hit a deer and it was such a MI life experience that I'd never had. And I dropped speed and then around the next turn there was a deer in the middle of the street. Had I been going faster I would have hit her, definitely.

Tonight, I was driving home and suddenly I started thinking about deer. I do not normally think about deer. But this was the same sort of thought, very strong, just like DEER in my head, and I laughed to myself and said, well, if there were deer, then you'd have a weird psychic ability, but of course when you really need it to say DEER it won't. And then around the next turn there was a whole squad of them (more than a dozen) everywhere in the field next to the road. (Great-Uncle Farmer's field, no less.) So that was strange.

I am so tired and I haven't even replied to an Etsy query. I had 14 packages to package and I photographed and listed a new crafted item, and I listed other stuff in Etsy.

And just now I have received 16 new emails from eBay. Why? Because someone has just purchased 8 items and PAID FOR ALL EIGHT SEPARATELY OH MY GOD. I DID NOT THINK THAT WAS POSSIBLE. I will combine the shipment and then have to go through and refund money on EACH of SEVEN transactions, because there isn't enough on any of them to refund all 7 excess shipping charges.

I will not be even looking at them until tomorrow. I am too tired for this crazysauce. Goodnight, internet.


Mar. 7th, 2011 01:48 pm
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I totally forgot; I have a physical today. First one...ever. I am not looking forward to it.

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Yes, I have finally gotten around to putting up more pond pics! Here's the first set of snow pics (lol, now that the Spring is nearly here).

Twenty-one images below cut )
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I slept horribly last night, due to hip pain on both sides that would not let me sleep for more than 45 minutes in a row. Entirely due to it being that time of the month. Ah well. I gave up around eight-something and just got up.

Yesterday was awesome, though. The Mummy viewing went spectacularly, and by the end of the evening I had a killer headache from laughing too much. Best way to get a headache, btw. It was so heartwarming to see friends and I enjoyed it thoroughly. Dinner was wonderful and the MST3K of the Mummy was hilarious. Many geek references were made and I hope that we can get together again soon, because this was very restoring on so many levels.

One of my friends brought her fiancée, whom I have never met, but who was definitely my kind of person; he had a tattoo of the Rankin-Bass Bilbo on his arm. Awesome. The only detriment to the evening was the lack of chairs, as I don't have enough comfy seating in my living room. Some day I really need to fix that. Furniture is so expensive, though. :( Thank goodness I have lots of pillows. Friend's son has shot up to over six feet tall, and it was quite amazing to see him again. He's becoming an adult! Shocking how that happens. He was adorable, though, and held the squid through the movie because "the squid wants to watch, too."

All in all, it was a reminder of what I miss out, being a hermit so much.


Mar. 4th, 2011 06:25 pm
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Husband is very much the Absent-Minded Professor, despite the fact that he is not a professor (yet).

He's usually pretty good about wearing his wedding ring. I honestly thought he'd lose it fairly quickly, but (lol) I've been the one to lose mine, actually (twice, though I did find it both times).

Anyway, I've noticed it in the little bathroom twice in the past week, and now I see it on the floor of the bedroom. Which led to the usual Valis thoughts, like maybe this was the One Wedding Ring and it had a mind of its own and was sitting there talking to itself in the language of Mordor and plotting things.

My brain cannot be counted on to go to the normal places when I see something. Seriously.
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I'm a little late getting up; it turns out it's pretty much that time of the month, or it's about to start tonight or something. No wonder I've been so completely exhausted all week, no wonder I've had the killer headache, and no wonder I've had to take ibuprofen every night for the worse-than-usual back pain.

It's like it's always a mystery, every month. It hits and then I think, oh, of course! This explains everything. lol.

Years ago, in my first fandom (but I did not realize I was in a fandom, lol), I was addicted to the Mummy. I loved it and I went to see it 14 times in the theater with friends. We wrote stories, read each other's stories, and had a great deal of fun. We pretty much memorized the movie and MST3K'ed it all the time.

Well, it's been ages since we did that. So when one of those friends popped up on my FB and said one of the quotes, I thought, you know what? I'm such a hermit. I never go and see anyone or do anything. And so I PMed everyone and said, c'mon, let's get together and rewatch it!

And they all pretty much said yes. So I have to clean the house today, and I need to go grocery shopping because Husband promised to cook, and I'm looking forward to it.

In other, far more Riptidian news, I've posted the Big Scene today. Only four more days left of posting, and then I'll be posting the giant Inspiration entry, where I ramble endlessly about what inspired me, and the songs I listened too, and other minutiae that people might be interested in. I was able to find videos of all the songs online except for one obscure song. Too bad, because it's one of the most important. At least I have the lyrics. The only other thing I have to do is make sure I revise that one scene. I think people are looking for a suitable finish for one character and I should definitely make sure it happens.

I feel pretty happy so far today. Hope I don't turn into crankypants later.

ETA: Oh dear. Husband's boss has a bit of an emergency going on at work; Husband might have to work tomorrow. Thank goodness we can just order pizza, and there's a decent local pizza place about five miles away. Someone will have to pick it up, but I'm sure that will be fine.
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Am soooo tired at this point. I ended up staying up late last night to finish eBay listings and listen to a friend on the phone, and I ended up having a teensy bit of trouble going to sleep.

Had another long phone call tonight and am just now about to go to bed. I sorted a whole bunch of merchandise while on the phone and I'll have to double-check my work tomorrow because I was a bit scattered.

Funniest thing today was when I stopped by the bookstore to see my old boss/good friend. A customer came up and asked, "Do you have a book, it's a part of a series, there are four books in the series, and they're numbered 1, 2, 3, and 4."

I can't make this stuff up, people.

I have more bubble wrap now, and good friend's SO should be coming over at some point to fix our bastard garage door. Not the big lifty electric thing, just the side door that was installed after the house was built. By someone who probably just took a saw and cut out a door-sized opening and stuck a door in it. Yeah. It doesn't fit. So I'm really looking forward to getting rid of the constant draft and the big gap at the top of the door, and the rotting door bits.

I've started up the other side of the roller coaster; I feel good about the fic again. Bright and bubbly. One of my fave parts went up today. Also, I scribbled notes at work today for the revised scene, and it should come together nicely. And for some reason I've just gone and ordered a Nancy Drew book from Amazon, most likely because I have this cracky fic idea.

I have no idea why I chose this icon, except that perhaps I secretly feel like a Fantasm Soldier today. Whatever that means.

Bed now, before I ramble even more strangely.
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I've been a little tense about the reception of the giant fic; and it goes to show me, oh so vividly, that when you write something and you end up writing it mostly for yourself, the not-yous that read it are not going to be as enamored of it. So there's that. I was a little sad but I'm trying to feel better about it, as there are people who are very happy with it, and in fact truly seem thrilled with it. In the long run, having a few readers who are passionate about a story is probably better than having nobody reading it, or unhappy readers, right? I am just going to look at this as another learning experience and keep moving forward. At least I have another novel writing experience under my belt.

I did realize that, based on what people are saying, I've left out a key scene and I must remember to scribble in a few new lines to explain what happened to one character. I think I know exactly what to do, which rocks my socks. It's cartoonish, but hey, the show was, too. Hence why I love it so much. Truth, love for your brother, and grey jeans; it's the Riptide way.

In other news, I'm behind on everything. I have a set of eBay store stuff to prep and list, and I need to make more crafted items, and I need to blog, and tweet, and it's already 7 pm and I'm tired tired tired. I think I'm just going to do what I can do before 10 and call it a night.

In fact, I think I might cut back on some of my hours at the day job. They don't have a ton of stuff for me to do right now, and I have more stuff going on at home that I really want to work on.

Hope you're all having a good week!

ETA: And the more I think about it, the more I am amazed that people have read such a long, talky, looong fic and been so enthusiastic about it. I think I should count myself as truly lucky that anyone at all found it interesting!


Feb. 26th, 2011 07:45 pm
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Yesterday I was feeling kind of paralyzed, and I really didn't know what to do next.

So today I rearranged my entire office.

For those of you who don't know, I work at home most of the time, and when we moved into this house I nabbed the master bedroom as my office. It was hard to figure out where to put the furniture because I have four desks and a table for photography, and of course there's the TV, the cubby-hole rack for papers, and the couch/coffee table. So I set it up in a way that I thought made sense.

I've had some growing dissatisfaction over this, though. First of all, my crafting supplies were in front of a window. Granted, I could put the shade down, but still; too much sunlight was getting in, and it can fade the supplies. Also, once in a while I can't use my aircard for the internet, and if I moved my computer I thought I might be able to get a better lock on the unsecured wireless in the area, just in case I have an issue again.

This morning I took a good hard look at the room, and rearranged everything in my head. And then I thought, "Oh, I'll do it later." But it got more and more strident, this desire to move everything around, and in the early afternoon I just started moving things. I scrapped my original idea and went with a modified idea. The crafting desk has become the bill/printer desk, my computer desk has joined it, so now I have a window in front of me when I work on the computer, which is kind of nice. And the crafting desk and supply rack are now against the other wall.

Even better, the bill desk, which was larger and had more shelves, has become the crafting desk. So now I have all this space and I can actually spread out my crafting stuff. And I think it's kind of a good sign, like I'm taking it more seriously and I really want to make a go at it. I hope.

So far I'm liking the new arrangement, except the TV is partially blocked by a chair so we have to move it when we sit down to watch Incredible Hulk each night. And the old crafting desk is not really big enough for the three printers and the scanner.

That's okay, though. I think the new advantages outweigh the cons.
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Today was a home day. I was expecting to get some things done. One of the things I'd like to do is craft an item so I can blog/tweet/etc. about it, but I have not managed to do this yet. I'm mainlining Hawaii 5-0 fics right now.

Grah. Brain is playing the usual game, of course, where there are many things to do of a similar importance level, so brain cannot pick one, so brain is paralyzed, and does nothing.

I'm finding some really good h/c, though.
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Mostly, I am giggling at my crazy self for wandering around in another fandom. I do this every so often, read a bunch of stories in a fandom I have no intention of watching/reading/pursuing. I did it in Mag7, for example. The newest one is Hawaii 5-0, thanks to [ profile] janedavitt, who's been writing a lot of delicious stuff recently. I don't even know what the characters look like, to be honest. I mean, I think I do, but I might have them reversed, lol.

Anyway, besides anything written by Jane, there are also two stories I really liked by [ profile] ratherastory. In the Dark is a terrific h/c story, fairly gen, no sex, where Steve gets a migraine. If you prefer some hot sex with your terrific h/c, then her story Fever When You Hold Me Tight is for you. Steve has a fever. There is awesome, lyrical, dreamy sex at the end.

In other news...I wrote a whopping huge story! I'm going to start posting it!

You knew I couldn't hold out for long, right? *grins*

eee eeeee

Feb. 23rd, 2011 08:49 pm
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This morning I wrote the epilogue.

I have just opened the document. I have chocolate. I have chai. I am ready to reread and see if it's crap.

(I think it's a bit rough and might need some polish. It's the end, after all, and I want to make it pretty. But other than that? YES. I THINK I AM DONE.)

And I might post the first part tomorrow night, if I get my ducks in a row. Otherwise, Friday.

ETA: YES. I THINK IT IS DONE. Final word count: 109,875. Which means I must add a single word somewhere so it becomes 10 9 8 7 6. lol.
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I wrote 2500 words today. I finished the Sticky Scene and wrote another scene, a truly tricky one.


I cannot believe this. I think I will start posting this bastard so very soon. SQUEE!!!

PS: am at 109,212 words. HOLY COW.


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