I really am starting to hate leaving.

Especially for long trips. I mean, there's a lovely feeling you sometimes get when you leave, knowing that you'll have a long drive to think and plan and listen to lots of music, but I have the kid with me, so none of those things will happen in the first leg of my journey, lol.

Still, I'm trying to change thought patterns--I find that if I don't think about the fact that I'll be gone for nearly a month, and if I just get out there and do it, it's a lot better than freaking out about it for ages like I have in the past. And I'm just trying to focus on the positive; I love Santa Fe, I'll can't wait to see subrosax, and I hope to actually do well financially from this trip.

Part of me still wants to be lazy, y'know? I want to play Xenosaga II. I've had it for ages, but the thought of committing 80 hours to a video game always makes me a little scared--I have so much to do around here, and when I waste time, I want to waste time online, ha.

I'm rambling, but I'm just feeling this odd mix of low and high. The sooner I get out the door, the better off it'll be, but still I hesitate--I'm really going to be stressed, I know, and that makes it all the more worse.

After I get home, I'll be home (more or less) for just over four months. I have to keep that in my sights. I have to think good thoughts about getting home and spending lots of nights in my own bed.

I'll miss you, dear flist.

Oh, and also, I normally close these entries to comments, but I'm leaving it open because of all of the fandom migration; please feel free to comment over the next month and let me know if you've made any special comms or organizations elsewhere (for your art, fic, etc.) that I need to join. Or anything of note that you think I shouldn't miss.

*giant hugs*

I'll be returning on September 8th.

New friends, please don't defriend me for lack of activity; when I get back I'll be as spammy as ever.