The up end of the cycle
Oct. 25th, 2008 10:19 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
valis2As you all are no doubt aware of, I am massively prone to navel-gazing. I have had another epiphany; I have large swings of mood. I don't just mean the monthly insanity. I mean overarching moods.
Right now I am in the middle of a Good Mood. This means that I am frightfully certain that everything will be okay. I am writing. I am writing. I am writing. Sorry, that's just such a huge portion of the mood. I am also feeling good about my face. During other swings, I look at my face in the mirror and I shudder and think, holy cow, am I ugly. Over and over and over again. It only lasts a moment, please don't feel you must now begin with the "You are beeyyooooutifrul" stuff. Anyway, right now, I'm actually happy with my face, and I think it looks fine.
Really, what I wanted to bitch about is the fact that during this kind of phase I CANNOT SLEEP. I can't get to sleep, and then I wake up too early and my mind floods with story stuff. I woke up at 7 this morning and that was it--no sleeping after that, except for a weird half asleep thing where I started making up my Mary Sue in Jake & the Fatman, which is a show I've never even seen, so this scares me a little.
I'm very geeked--I'm off to Columbus. I have a show tomorrow, and I've splurged and rented a hotel room for tonight. It's a four hour drive, and normally I would try to drive there the morning of (four hours is my "limit," anything outside of four hours requires a hotel room), but I've decided that it's better to skip the long day and instead take it a little easy. This has turned out to be the Best Decision Ever because I am so sleep-deprived this week. Plus, this means I get to hang out with![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
lady_branwyn tonight. Best bonus ever!
In other news, Firefox has decided to only save my tabs 98% of the time. So I've lost a bunch of Knight Rider tabs this morning. I will soldier on, though.
Right now I am in the middle of a Good Mood. This means that I am frightfully certain that everything will be okay. I am writing. I am writing. I am writing. Sorry, that's just such a huge portion of the mood. I am also feeling good about my face. During other swings, I look at my face in the mirror and I shudder and think, holy cow, am I ugly. Over and over and over again. It only lasts a moment, please don't feel you must now begin with the "You are beeyyooooutifrul" stuff. Anyway, right now, I'm actually happy with my face, and I think it looks fine.
Really, what I wanted to bitch about is the fact that during this kind of phase I CANNOT SLEEP. I can't get to sleep, and then I wake up too early and my mind floods with story stuff. I woke up at 7 this morning and that was it--no sleeping after that, except for a weird half asleep thing where I started making up my Mary Sue in Jake & the Fatman, which is a show I've never even seen, so this scares me a little.
I'm very geeked--I'm off to Columbus. I have a show tomorrow, and I've splurged and rented a hotel room for tonight. It's a four hour drive, and normally I would try to drive there the morning of (four hours is my "limit," anything outside of four hours requires a hotel room), but I've decided that it's better to skip the long day and instead take it a little easy. This has turned out to be the Best Decision Ever because I am so sleep-deprived this week. Plus, this means I get to hang out with
lady_branwyn tonight. Best bonus ever!In other news, Firefox has decided to only save my tabs 98% of the time. So I've lost a bunch of Knight Rider tabs this morning. I will soldier on, though.
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Date: 2008-10-25 05:11 pm (UTC):(
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Date: 2008-10-27 01:57 am (UTC)And *hugs* to you on being at the bottom. I hate that place and I'm sure you do too. :(
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Date: 2008-10-25 05:37 pm (UTC)... And yeah. Also with you on the NO SLEEPING thing. I wake up early because there are notes in my brain that need to be written, end up falling asleep after supper because I'm so tired, wake up at 10pm, am awake until 3am, then fall asleep until 7am (if I'm lucky) and it starts all over again.
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Date: 2008-10-27 01:58 am (UTC)Those are the best days, honestly. I love these days, even if I am a bit of a zombie.
... And yeah. Also with you on the NO SLEEPING thing. I wake up early because there are notes in my brain that need to be written, end up falling asleep after supper because I'm so tired, wake up at 10pm, am awake until 3am, then fall asleep until 7am (if I'm lucky) and it starts all over again.
Driving home from Columbus was nearly a disaster--thank goodness I called a friend, because I was so damned tired--I still haven't been able to sleep. Growl.