impending doom

[valis2]

I'm a little down today. Not because of anything that I really should be down about, honestly, I'm just feeling like I've reached the productivity lull I was worried about.

I've been working like gangbusters for a few months, but now suddenly I'm unable to decide what to do next. I don't feel like doing anything. My petulant five-year-old inner self is stomping her feet about anything I suggest. And it's not like I want to laze around and do nothing, either; I feel like I should be doing something, but I just sit here while my five-year-old self screams about anything I think about doing.

This is very frustrating. I escaped her for a while, but she really came back with a vengeance this weekend. I did manage to get things done, but not as much as I could have by far. I am chalking it up to two things; that time of the month is coming up, and also I am leaving on Saturday for one of my big month-long trips. So I think I'm just feeling unusually grumpy due to the conflux of these two items.

I'm also grumping about my phone. I just bought a new phone, a Samsung Transform. I am loving it so far, but I am noticing that the main Contacts screen isn't including all of my contacts, just my ancient Yahoo email contacts and some other random FB people (not even all the FB peeps, wtf?). My phone numbers (which are what I actually will be using most; this is a phone! grah!) aren't in the contacts at all. I ported them over using Bluetooth, and I can access them by making a new folder on the main page, but I just can't figure out how to get these phone numbers into my main contacts. How useless is that, to have all of these contacts I never use in the main directory? I want my phone numbers there, not in some folder with less functionality. grah. Maybe there's something I'm missing, but I've been through the manual and it doesn't explain this, only how to make folders. Perhaps the phone numbers are in a file because they were ported by Bluetooth.

Even better, I thought I'd just stick everything on SD and put it in my new phone, but the SD card is internal on the new phone! So I'd have to take the cover off and stuff just to get to it. So I figured, fine, I'll just put it on the SD card, pop it in my computer, and then hook the Transform to the computer and pull them out that way. Only the computer refuses to recognize the Transform. I've looked through a couple forums, and the answer for half the people is that the card must be mounted to the USB connection, and once you get the notification you should just mount the card. Only I am not getting the notification, so I'm in with the other half of people, some of whom are suggesting arcane rituals with demons of the night as the only way to get Windows 7 to recognize the Transform.

grah and double grah. I'm just so grumpy and headachey. and whiny. That was obvious, but I had to state it anyway.

No writing has been done. Triple grah. Okay, this definitely qualified for the emo!valis icon.

Fine. I'm done whining for the moment. I will get up and go do something. I want to cross things off my list!

Five year old self: NOES! NOT GONNA! *flounce*

sigh.

Comments

[idleleaves.livejournal.com]

It's also, socially speaking, that week of the year where a lot more people than usual (in the northern hemisphere, at least) are feeling low. Bah. Combination of time of year, post-holiday schlump, lack of sunlight, and a bunch of other things.

I haven't been much productive today, either, and though I want to be doing something, my brain does not.

Yes, me =/= my brain. We are separate entities.

[valis2.livejournal.com]

Yes! Yes, exactly. My brain is definitely recalcitrant sometimes and I have to fight with it as well!

I so totally want to be writing but I'm just kind of staring at it. lol.

[jaelle-n-gilla.livejournal.com]

I know the feeling. And travel and that time of month is not a good combination. Why don't you give your five year old something to play with, and some comfort food, watch her smile and enjoy it without feeling you should do something else. Might just work. not for the crossing of things but for your mood.

[valis2.livejournal.com]

That does sound like a great idea. :) I ended up talking on the phone to a friend, and while I did so, I prepped eBay listings, so I kind of satisfied both the five-year-old and myself.

Thanks, sweetie! *hugs*

[iibnf.livejournal.com]

See, if you ate chips, you could eat chips now.

[valis2.livejournal.com]

And now I'm sad that I don't eat chips. lol!

impending dome

[penball.livejournal.com]

Uh, you are in the same lousy mood that I am...I get only the really, believe me the realy important things done...the rest is...

Well facing the fact that you are leaving for a horror 4 weeks trip, I thought about writing a FF for you...yes Nick h/c. I started today and I have 2600 now but(well words!) you know I have to translate it into almost readable English so I hope I am able to do this before the 22nd quasi as a gift for you, being forced to leave your nest!
Hugs and have a nice cup of tea...so do I!

Re: impending dome

[valis2.livejournal.com]

You are writing Nick h/c for me?!!! SQUEE!!!!!!! THANK YOU SO MUCH!

Even if it's not done by the time I leave, I'll still try to find a way to read it, even if I have to read it on my phone. hee!

You are so sweet! And I'm sorry that you're in a lousy mood, my friend. *hugs*

[drusillas-rain.livejournal.com]

I hate my inner 5-yr-old. Or, at least I used to because it felt like she delighted in sabotaging my efforts to accomplish anything. My therapist and I spent a lot of time working on this issue, and the main thing that came out of it is a) she was me, and b) if she was "manifesting" then it meant that I needed to give myself the space to take things easy and do something "childish" like cut out the things I didn't really need to do, or paint/play. I've learned it's a way to balance out my insane desire to be 100% productive all of the time, because if I don't listen to her, I end up not accomplishing anything and then feeling like shit even more.

*hugs*

[valis2.livejournal.com]

Wow, this is so fascinating! I always love reading your entries and communicating with you because I feel like we have some things in common (as well as because you rock, of course), and this is so fascinating to me. I am really going to think about this comment and I can't thank you enough for it. *hugs*

[thedoingofit.livejournal.com]

*hugs hugs hugs* I think it's really easy to get in that sort of funk at about this time of year (especially if you've got as much going on in your life as it sounds like you do, and especially if that time of the month is coming on!)... :o/ I hope that your five-year-old self passes quickly, or that she at least grows up to eight or nine soon... ;oP *hugs*

[valis2.livejournal.com]

I think she's been mollified...for now. I worked a couple days, and that seemed to take the edge off. Hopefully she'll hang out in the background for a while! *hugs* Thank you, sweetie!