Pressure, argh, damnit.

[valis2]

I have been flailing about for a couple days at this point. I am in extended flailing mode. Not in a good way, either.

I have so much to do. I would list it out here, but that would be depressing for me, and boring for you.

I am also feeling so totally cranky and angry about everything, which is not my normal state of affairs. I've broken out the chocolate I planned to take with me on the trip, so that should tell you something.

I leave Friday, will be gone for 32 days to AZ. I return for a week, then I go to FL. I return for a week, then I go on my long cross-country trip. Then I return for a week, and then go to LA (PR, hooray!), and then I'm home for a couple weeks, and then I go to WI for three weeks, and then I'm home, and then I go to Prophecy, and then...

...I fall face down on the bed and sleep.

I have so much to do before I go. I have done far less than I hoped.

On top of this, I really am not caring for the moody crap, nor am I appreciative of the sudden tremendous drop in fannish self-esteem I seem to be experiencing. grrr.

No commiseration necessary. I feel better just having snarked to the universe.

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[orionnoire.livejournal.com]

No commiseration necessary.

*Hugs anyway*

Maybe I missed out on the post explaining this, but why do you travel this much? Traveling sounds like heaven, but that's a lot and with so little time home, too.

[valis2.livejournal.com]

It's (mostly) for business. I work as a sales rep for a business in WI, and I work for them in two different capacities, as a traditional on-the-road sales rep, doing shows and stopping at stores...and also as a worker bee, helping them out at shows that they do. The show in AZ is a big deal, and we'll be in AZ for at least two weeks.

FL, LA, and Prophecy, however, are three vacations I'm taking, and it's making me feel a little guilty...oh, okay, a lot guilty. I just want to enjoy myself a little, but now I'm wondering...I mean, seriously, I'll never be home! eep!

Thank you so much for the hugs!!

[orionnoire.livejournal.com]

Sounds like a cool job. A lot of work, but you get to travel! :D

Hey, no need to feel guilty! You shouldn't feel bad about taking time for yourself! And, yay Prophecy! *is so excited about next summer*

You're very welcome! *hugs some more* ;)