I am lost today

[valis2]

I can't figure out what to do.

I'm getting things done, but they're not things that need to be done right now.

The thought of looking at my to-do list is causing all of the cells in my body to scream no.

I can't even think properly. I'm just sitting here, watching Miami Vice, sorting out merchandise that really doesn't need to be sorted quite yet. I have a show tomorrow, but I don't want to unpack my car and double-check anything or even just look at it.

What I really want to do is write. But I shouldn't, because there are other things to do. I need to email a customer and ship a package. Yet I am not doing that. I'm just wandering around the house every so often, and then coming back and turning on the TV and watching more Vice. And I'm just so lost. I can't even figure out the next priority. I forgot to make a list at the last show, and now I can't imagine what to do next.

Husband's grandmother's 90th birthday is near, and we are celebrating it today at a nearby restaurant. Eventually I'll have to put together an outfit and look presentable and paste a smile on my face and be social. But for right now, I'm just sitting here in my comfy pants, staring at Don Johnson while I sort stuff like a robot.

Maybe that's all my brain is up for right now. I have no idea why.

Actually, I think that the writing is clouding everything else. My brain is just consumed with these words and wants to write them down. And since I'm not, there are sour grapes. "You won't write these words down? FINE! I'm not helping you do anything else, then."

sigh.

Comments

[milomaus.livejournal.com]

Duh, that´s just what happened to me yesterday. Except, all I wanted to do was read. In the end I was so frustrated and ill tempered, that I took the little imp for a ride and got sth. totally else done. Left the important stuff until late at night, though.
I hope it worked out better for you! How about dictating the things you wanna write while you do sth totally different?
Get it "on paper" later...
Doing two things at once might be dangerous, though. (I´m imagining you writing the customer an email - about sth. like Nick and Cody could be doing with water...*g*)

My thoughts are with you!

[valis2.livejournal.com]

I have a terrible time dictating anything--believe me, it's a great idea, but I just can't do it. My voice sounds strange, and I get caught up in the words and I get very self-conscious and it doesn't flow.

I have the story all outlined and it's just waiting for me to write it! GRAH.

And yes, I can just imagine sending a customer a N/C story instead of their order confirmation. ha! That would be awesome. *grins*

*hugs* Thank you!!

[milomaus.livejournal.com]

I know the stuff about the voice! I hate our answering machine.

I wanna be the customer to receive a N/C story!

*hugs back* You´re welcome. (For whatever you thanked me for.)

[valis2.livejournal.com]

Our answering machine just has a digital voice on it, so I don't have to feel embarrassed. :)

And if I were to receive a N/C story from an eBay seller...I think I'd jump through the roof in excitement! ha!!

*hugs*