Torture!

[valis2]

You know, there's this roller-coaster which always accompanies writing (for me)...it's this continual movement, up and down, and it's even worse when I'm writing something like an exchange fic.

I'm working on the snupin fic, which is coming together very nicely (joy), and I am feeling all of these things concurrently, which is making my head spin:

• The recipient is going to hate it. I don't think this is what they were looking for.


• I am having the time of my life writing this. I can't imagine a more perfect scenario for me to write.


• I've bitten off way more than I should have. I'm glad that I'm flexible, and was able to rearrange things.


• I adore this fic.


• No one will understand this fic except for me, and one other person in the fandom who I know, for certain, shares this interest.


• I really love this fic.


• It's not going to receive any comments because no one's going to read it because it's such a bizarre niche-fic.


• I can't wait to finish this fic, yet I know I'm going to be sad when it's over, because I am really enjoying it.


• It's so utilitarian. I must embellish it. But if I embellish it too much, it'll be too much. Maybe I should leave it stripped down. Or maybe I should embellish it.


• No one is going to like this. They're going to get one paragraph into it and throw up their hands in despair.


• I am so very much hoping that odddollsstories thinks it's decent.


• I think I will actually be very, very happy with this fic, as long as the recipient likes it. If they don't, I'm going to be so very sad for ruining someone's fic exchange experience.

What's Ron's quote? "One person can't feel all that at once, they'd explode?" Heh.

Seriously, all of these thoughts have gone through my head today, sometimes all at the same time.

Comments

[valis2.livejournal.com]

Oh, wow, did they actually come out and say that it wasn't what they had in mind? What a scary thing! Now I'm quaking in my boots.

[seaislewitch.livejournal.com]

No, she said that it wasn't what she expected, but she was pleasantly surprised. I guess that's good. She had asked for Lucius/Narcissa, Bellatrix/Rudolphus and Andromeda/Ted, and I gave them to her, along with a Slytherin power struggle featuring Severus, Regulus and Rabastan. *shrugs* I just needed to write it. lol