I am home.

[valis2]

I got some distressing news on the way home about someone very dear to my heart. (Not Husband, but still very dear.) The news isn't...dire, but I am a bit fragile at the moment. I'm trying to think good thoughts but I'm really close to that time of the month. I'm sure everything will work out just fine and this will all be an overreaction.

I've had all sorts of awful dreams. (Pre-news.) Dreams about yelling at evil carpeting guy who cut the fringe off my living room rug. Dreams of being a complete failure. One of the mornings I woke early from such a dream and just got out of bed. I was afraid to try to go back to sleep.

I also came home to a bill which could possibly point to Valis Financial Meltdown, in which I finally hit the limits on all of my open credit cards. I have managed to pay off one card, but that momentary happy is definitely far overshadowed by the Limit Monster. Buying the computer was a big part of it, but I can't regret it because of how much faster and easier it's made absolutely everything, and I haven't had the issues that I had with the old one. So. The light at the end of the tunnel is that my car only has a few more payments left, and this is a good set of months for me financially (well, historically), and also I have high hopes for my new website. I mean, not like $924856238956 a minute or anything, but if it could just generate a little extra it would be great.

Also, I am home. For three weeks, which makes me happy. I am happy to be home. I am going to list my little heart out tonight and see if I can't get some good stuff out there for sale.

I'm just trying to find the ground level and get my bearings back. I hate the suspended-in-fear feeling, y'know?

Missed y'all. *hugs*

Comments

[chocolate-limes.livejournal.com]

I'm glad it wasn't Husband, but I'm sorry to hear you've had bad news. Hurray for being home, though *big hugs*

[valis2.livejournal.com]

Aw, thanks! Yeah, I am happy to be home. My eBay store is cleaned out and I really need to get listing! whew.

*hugs*

[sylvadin.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

...and a large mug of hot cocoa - because chocolate has been proven to medicinal for women, especially at *that* time of the month...

[valis2.livejournal.com]

omg, I have no chocolate in the house!! aigh! Virtual chocolate will have to do.

No, wait, what am I saying?! I have enough hot chocolate to float a destroyer. Seriously. I will make myself a mug. What an excellent suggestion!

*huge hugs* Thank you, sweetie, so much. I am always grateful for your comments.

[valis2.livejournal.com]

I'm glad to be home, and I'm hoping for the best. Thank you!! *hugs in return*

[marginaliana]

*hugs* Hoping things will get better for you soon!

[valis2.livejournal.com]

Aw, thanks! Husband is now home, and I'm feeling a little bit better. Having someone to hug is really wonderful. :)

[catyah.livejournal.com]

*HUGS*

You're in my thoughts and prayers.

[valis2.livejournal.com]

Aw, you are the sweetest! Thank you so much. :)

[todayiamadaisy]

Often that waiting fear is much worse than actually knowing. Fingers crossed it all works out.

[valis2.livejournal.com]

My fingers are crossed, too. And my toes. :) *hugs*

[slavelabour.livejournal.com]

Oh noes. {hugs} Have supplies for a hot toddy? Like, yknow, WHISKEY?

[valis2.livejournal.com]

No whiskey, sadly! But I do have a bottle of riesling in the fridge that will do the trick. ;) *hugs back*

Home again

[penball.livejournal.com]

I hope you are feeling better today and I am happy you are back home again!

Re: Home again

[valis2.livejournal.com]

I'm so glad to be home, seriously. Thank you!! *hugs*

[sigune.livejournal.com]

*HUGS*

Sending my mental support. Hang in there.

[valis2.livejournal.com]

Oh, thank you so much! I need all the help I can get right now. *hugs*

[catsintheattic.livejournal.com]

I hope the distressing news will turn out less bad than you fear. *hugs*

And, oh dear, I, too, hate the feeling of being suspended - I can deal with knowing much better than with not knowing.

*sends milk-chocolate covered macadamia nuts*

[valis2.livejournal.com]

I very much hope that the news turns out positive in the end. Definitely.

And the suspension...it's hard to deal with at first, but I'm trying to get past it. Thank you for the sweet words, and the virtual chocolate!

[tjs-whatnot.livejournal.com]

♥

[valis2.livejournal.com]

Aw, thank you! *hugs*

[hardboiledbaby]

I'm so sorry about the distressing news, which, if you literally meant you got it while in transit, must have been even more stressful. *big hugs* But glad you're home, and that other good things are happening. Hang in there. *more big hugs*

[valis2.livejournal.com]

Yeah, it was kind of a scary start to the drive, but it evened out. The Road Trance kind of helped. I even though of some fic. *grins*

Still, I'm a little off-balance, and I'm trying to get back on track. Thank you SO much for the hugs and well-wishing. You are so sweet!

[lindahoyland.livejournal.com]

Sending hugs.

[valis2.livejournal.com]

Aw, thank you so much! *hugs in return*

[thedoingofit.livejournal.com]

This is late, but *hugs hugs hugs* all the same! Hope things with dear one (and bill!) improve at a rapid rate... <333

[valis2.livejournal.com]

Aw, somehow I missed this!! :( Thank you so much for your sweet hugs!

[verdenia.livejournal.com]

*HUGS*
Sorry you had a tough time. I woke up from a bad dream this am. ;/

Glad the new computer is good & that car payments are almost done!!!
*hug hug*

[valis2.livejournal.com]

Sometimes those bad dreams can just cast such a pall over the whole day, y'know? *hugs*

The new computer is amazing, and yes, only a few more car payments!!! squee!