Finally, I am getting it done.

[valis2]

I have scheduled a surgical procedure in August. I am so excited and happy. I have...hmm...let's just put it in simple terms...droopy eyelids. When I was growing up one eyelid ended up being considerably lower than the other, and I had surgery to correct it. Over the last few years the other eyelid has been drooping badly. It bothers me to no end, because it cuts off part of my vision, and it forces the other eye to do most of the work, which gives me headaches. I'm certain the original eye will start drooping in the next few years, but still, it will be so nice to have some time where I'm not paranoid about having a larger blind spot while I'm driving.

Plus, I am heartily sick of being at shows and having people approach me from the droopy-eyed side and snicker, "Aw, falling asleep?" This happens at least a couple times per show. I usually turn to them so that they can see both eyes and say, in an extremely non-sleepy voice, "Not yet." I will be so happy not to hear these stupid comments any longer, though I understand that it's a common conversational thing between vendors.

I'm also looking forward to not feeling weird about looking people in the eye. I just always hope that no one is uncomfortable carrying a conversation on with me. And I hate that potential customers see it, and I always worry that they're kind of squicked by it and that they leave my booth sooner than intended.

And I'm looking forward to not wincing when I see pictures of myself.

And the procedure (even with all of the add-ons) will only cost half of what I had thought.

Happy day!

Comments

[elddonnemar.livejournal.com]

Your worry that people leave your booth sooner because of the way you look infuriates me. I wish you didn't spend so many years wincing at your own pictures because the brilliance of your writing cannot be offset by one droopy eyelid. Even though I haven't seen your "merchandise" that you've crafted, I imagine it is very good if it has been your livelihood for so long. You seem like such a friendly and funny person on this LJ that there's no excuse for you to feel like this.

I believe that you would not be squicked at others with physical defects, and if I'm right, then you shouldn't think like those who would about yourself.

Of course, I also wish you luck and maximum comfort during your surgery.

[valis2.livejournal.com]

My goodness! Such a vote of confidence, thank you so much!

Thank you for the well-wishing. I wish I could avoid the general anesthesia, but otherwise, it should be simple. :)